Wednesday. Still in Bangkok. It’s very easy to stay in my little bubble here. It’s very comfortable. I never want to leave. I’m obsessed with my safe space.

I feel so calm and relaxed all the time. It’s such a relief to be so far away from the nightmare life I was once living. I’ve never felt this content in my entire life. I didn’t even know it was possible for me to feel so consistently normal.

Still recovering from Monday. Have not been out of the apartment at all. Instead I’ve been doing yoga and journaling. Thinking of going back to India for another YTTC. Unfortunately, I have to wait until my current tourism visa expires in a month before I can go back for a 30-day yoga course again. No escaping from reality today.

Instead I sat down with my notebook and made a new list of personal goals and priorities. This year has been ridiculous. Nothing turned out how I expected. I’ve learned a lot and made many mistakes along the way. Now I’m here in Month 9 wondering… what do I do next now that my previous plans have all totally been derailed?

Just keep sending job applications. So far no luck. Re-did my resume again. Just keep at it, I guess. What other choice do I have?

Either way, it’s always good to sit down and take stock of everything I’ve accomplished in the last few years. Priorities have definitely shifted and changed. I’ve checked quite a few items off of my bucket list. Others remain untouched or frustratingly out-of-reach. Either way, life moves forward.

Off to do some more yoga now. Rest. Relax. Regulate my nervous system. Meditate until I have some clarity on my life. What course of action to take next, I wonder?

I wonder, I wonder…