Thursday night. Sitting in my apartment watching Sex and the City, waiting for my delivery for the evening.

Tonight I chose to splurge a bit on Hong Kong style. Got the whole buffet. Egg and tomato soup, scallion pancakes, egg fried noodles, curry with beef brisket, spicy stir-fried eggplant, extra extra rice on the side, red bean ice. Leftovers for days! They even threw in a free Chrysanthemum drank for me since I ordered so much. Love it.

Why go to the trouble of going down the canal alone when I can just have everything delivered straight to me?

So lazy, I know. I don’t care. I’m living my best foodie life right now, really.

Sitting here thinking about Andrew. What a strange situation. I was reflecting on the whole long thing that went on and I realized this person actually enjoys playing these weird games with me. The whole thing is pretty bizarre. As Mad Dog says, we are obsessed with each other. It is what it is.

I’m perfectly content with this. I have sat under the tree and made peace with it. I’m into it! I guess I like the games. It keeps it interesting for me. I get bored so easily.

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Friday morning. Sitting in the park with my coffee and a cigarette. The baristas at the cafe all know me now. So do all of the security guards in the condo. Everyone here is so friendly. It makes me feel less alone.

Thinking about the stalker again. Whoever it is, they’re very dedicated. They’ve been at this for years. It’s impressive. I just write down whatever I see happening in front of me at the time and how I feel about it. This person goes out of their way to screenshot everything I post.

When I had Twitter, I tweeted constantly. I had multiple accounts with like 50k tweets or more. It’s just my random thought dumps and this person documented ALL of it.

They once sent me a “threat” saying “they have everything.” Again, impressive. I don’t even have everything. I have no idea what I’m doing. I failed my way into Thailand. Clearly this person is more organized than I am.

They have tried to make fake Twitter accounts of me posting these screenshots. People usually report them immediately and they get deleted. Like, people know it’s not me. They know what you are, which is sad, weird, and creepy. But again, I admire your dedication to cause of Revenge against me for whatever I did to hurt your fragile little ego, so respect.

Who am I to judge someone on a Revenge mission? I’m a Scorpio. Plus, we all know I played that game long ago. Now I’m a yogi hanging out in SEA searching for enlightenment. People change. Breaking News: I’m not the same person I was five years ago, ten years ago, twenty years ago. I’m 36. Cut me a break. Sorry I’m not perfect. Sorry I fuck up and make mistakes. At least I’m taking accountability and trying to set a positive example for others who have also made mistakes in the past?

The truth is that I have no idea who it is. I speculate. That it is Andrew based on previously mentioned evidence. However, it could just be some random internet crackpot troll on a mission to destroy. It could be someone totally random that I don’t even expect but also personally know. It’s very hard to say. I’ve been active on the internet since the year 2000. It could literally be anyone.

Well, whoever it is, they are more than welcome to get on a plane to Thailand and face me in person. Hope you’ve accrued a lot of credit card points and airline miles to make the trip! Maybe once you get here, you’ll stop for a moment and take a moment to chill out. Relax. Look around you and realize that none of this actually matters in the grand scheme of things. Delete your troll account. Turn off your phone. Throw it into the river. Go up to the rooftop. Take a seat by the pool. Order a drink. Relax. Chill the fuck out. Get some Vitamin D. Take a deep breath. Chill.

Here’s your problem: you spend too much time in the basement looking at a computer screen. Enough already. It’s not that deep. Let it go.

Ugh, anyway, let’s move on to something more interesting.

Speaking of observing whatever is currently happening around me, I definitely have an exciting event in my neighborhood to report. My upstairs neighbor is SUPER HOT! Total beefcake status. I’ve seen him around a couple of times now. This morning I bumped into him while he was just casually doing some legwork in the stairwell. 😉 He is really good looking. Again, I’m out here to break the myth that Asian men are not attractive. So untrue! This guy could definitely be on Magic Mike Live.

I have so many things to take care of today. The housekeeper has not come yet this week, so I need to write to my host. I need to pick up a package of bottled water and some snacks. I need to get some new moisturizer that this chick with perfect skin recommended to me. I need to get my nails done. I need to work on my essay and application. I need to book my next YTTC and plane ticket. So many things. This is why I like to wake up early and take time to sip my coffee and write in my diary.

Definitely need to do some yoga today before I start anything. I’ve been lazy this week. Feeling very weighed down, especially after that documentary. What a buzzkill.

I’m actually going to go do that right now. I really need it. I can’t possibly sit here and stare off into space anymore. Not with all the things I have to do today.