Tuesday morning. No coffee yet. It’s raining outside.
Stayed in and slept last night for obvious reasons. I wasn’t too excited about going out again after what happened. Kinda over it now, to be honest.
Right now I’m staying until the end of the month. Then I will go to India again and do yoga for a month. Then I don’t know. Write a book, maybe? Find a job? Find a job where I have time to write a book?
I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. It’s okay. I’m going to the yoga shala. Everything will be okay. The path will reveal itself in time.
I am okay with uncertainty, for now. That being said… in the future, after this course is finished, I would like to have some sort of plan figured out. That would be good. For now, let’s just chill.
What should I do with my last week in Thailand? Try not to get robbed? Lol. I did some other activities with my new group of expat friends. We went on a dinner boat river cruise, out to various nightclubs, visited various markets, rode around in the tuk tuk and on the BTS, this type of thing. It’s much more fun to do these things as a group. Being alone gets old after awhile. Plus it’s more safe with a group, as I learned on Saturday night.
I’ve definitely had the full Thailand experience. Glad I decided to stay for a month, even if some of it has been questionable…
Here we are on a tour of the world. Next stop: India! Time to do the trip I planned that I didn’t get to take. Let’s go see the Taj Mahal and all the forts and do yoga in the pretty mountains, without the burden of the annoying ex-boyfriend clinging on.
And then what? I have no idea! But I will have lots of stamps on my passport and lots of enriching experiences, which I longed to have in my 20’s but could not. Now I’m finally out here having them, so yay!
It’s stopped raining now. Time to go get some coffee. Maybe work on my story, which I think might be a spy thriller. The only problem is that all the shows and movies I’ve been watching have been romcoms, not spy thrillers. I tried to watch The Diplomat but I kept falling asleep. So, I have no idea what I’m writing yet. I just know it’s very interesting.
So that’s just my fun side project I’m allowing to fester. Meanwhile, this travel book. Also progressing better than planned, though I am still so disappointed about Hong Kong. It feels like I took a huge dive and landed flat on my face. Full belly flop. But at this point, I’ve been in Thailand longer than I was in Hong Kong, so it’s time to let it go now. It wasn’t meant to be. And besides, it wasn’t as glamorous as I thought it would be anyway…
I will feel better after I complete the Yoga Teacher Training course. The achievement will erase the pain. It will be a distant memory. I will have confidence in myself again. I will figure out a new plan. Everything is going to be okay…
Coffee will reanimate my soul…