Wednesday night. Sitting at home alone in my gigantic loft, again. I’m spending an absurd amount of money on it, so I’m staying home to enjoy it. It is what it is.

I finally made a decision about what to do. I booked the last spot at a 300hr Yoga Teacher Training Course in India for the month of August. I thought it would be a better course of action than aimlessly meandering through SEA for another month. At least I will have structure, discipline, and focus. I can build my confidence back up again and work towards a meaningful goal. It’s the best way for me to earn back that sense of achievement.

I think now is a good time for my 300hr. When I first went, I had no idea what I was doing. I wasn’t disciplined. I wasn’t healed. I hadn’t done half of the stuff in the course. I was unfocused and lazy. Now it’s like… I know I am all of those things, which is why I must change it. This is the best way I can think of to do that. It’s not about getting a job. It’s about changing my personal habits to live a healthier lifestyle so I can function in the workplace.

I think I will go to Bali after the YTTC and try out the whole remote worker thing. Meanwhile, I will finish the month out here in Thailand. Seems like the best plan for now.

I was supposed to go out for a girls night but I am too tired. I just can’t get excited about going out to a bar in Bangkok. The whole idea of it is just… icky, lol.

Going to bed early again, like I do pretty much every night. I wake up pretty early as well. It’s nice to be on a regular sleep schedule again. That job in Hong Kong was not worth giving up a full night’s rest. It just wasn’t.

Anyway, that is behind me now. I am looking ahead to the future. I am going to finish the month out in Thailand, go to the 300hr YTTC in India, then shift to Bali to figure out the next step from there.

Okay, that’s it, that’s the plan for now. Let’s see what happens from here on out. Just keep writing and sending resumes out. Work on getting my confidence back up. Add more stamps to my passport. Get out into the world and collect more interesting experiences to write about.

Let’s just keep floating through the void…